This is tough sometimes.

> 寧願退一步想，消極地不再期待便不會因為求之不得而感到失落。

While I understand but this seems to go very far. (too far?)

> 跌得最痛那一次，滿以為自己即使不是最頂尖的一群總會擠進學科的狹隘門檻；期望換來的卻是不留情面的拒絕。要站起來，倒是不容易。

I like people like Bill Buxton, Bruce Mau, Randy Pausch, et al. One thing I learn from them is the fun and joy in the pursuit of excellence and not necessary being “excellence” itself. In fact, if Bill taught me one thing, it is the fact of trying and failing a lot, that will create excellence.

> 對我來說，都是額外的獎賞。

For me, I expect very little even sometimes I try very hard and I see everything as “bonus”.

For me, (this will sound like a car ad), it is the pursuit of excellence and not necessary being “excellent”. It is the changing of the world (one tiny baby step at a time).